The Interior - Страница 13

Something else bothered Hulan. While suicide stemmed from deep melancholy, very often victims used the act as a way of getting the last word, of inflicting permanent guilt on those left behind. As a result, suicides were often planned so that the people who discovered the body were the actual targets of the victim's rage or despair. The young woman in Beijing, for example, had taken her baby to a neighbor's house, come home, dressed in her wedding clothes, drunk the carbolic acid, and, despite her agonizing abdominal spasms, positioned herself so that her husband-who turned out to have had a series of affairs-would find her on their marriage bed.

Out here on the farm only one person could find Miaoshan. But so far Suchee had said nothing that would indicate that there had been any hard feelings between herself and Miaoshan. Twenty-five years was a long time, but could Suchee have changed so much that she could hide icr emotions and motives so cleverly that Hulan wouldn't be able to see jthrough them? If Suchee had felt guilt or remorse, would she have asked lulan to come out here at all? No, Hulan decided, the mother was convinced that something had happened to her daughter, and the longer lulan spent out here in this shed, the more convinced she became as ill.

Without obvious physical evidence Hulan knew that the only way to inderstand what had happened was to take steps back from the scene of le crime. With each step a clearer picture would emerge. Her first step vould be to interview Tsai Bing, since so often murders were committed by husbands or boyfriends. Nothing in what Suchee had said about Tsai Bing suggested any animosity between him and his fiancee, but mothers jcould be blind when it came to such personal matters.

Hulan stood, pushed open the door, and went back outside. She ^canned the fields and spotted Suchee. Hulan walked along a raised berm inning between a field of corn and a field of budding sunflowers until phe reached her friend, who was working the soil with a hoe.

"I've been thinking, Suchee," Hulan said. "It would be a mistake for ie to talk to people as an investigator for the Ministry of Public Security. They would be too scared."

Suchee frowned. "My daughter's murderer deserves to be scared."

"Yes, of course, but if you want him caught, then we can't frighten lim into hiding. Let him think he's gotten away with it. Let him think I'm merely a relative or friend who's come to visit. He'll let down his (lefenses. When he does, I'll be there."

"But who?"

"I don't know yet, but for me to flush him out, I must understand him. To understand him, I must understand Miaoshan. To understand her, I believe I must blend in."

"Not like that," Suchee said, nodding at Hulan's clothes. "You can wear Miaoshan's things, at least until that baby you're carrying gets bigger."

Back in the house, Suchee opened a low cabinet. On two shelves were neatly folded cotton clothes. "These were Miaoshan's. She was thin like you."

Many times in Hulan's life she'd been required to change personas. On some occasions these had been at the whim of politics, as when she'd been thrust out of her routine as a model child of privilege and sent to the countryside. Other times had been the result of geographical circumstance-from Chinese countryside girl to Connecticut boarding school student. Jobs and money had also affected her attire-as a law student, then as an associate at Phillips, MacKenzie amp; Stout. In recent years she'd changed her dress to meet the needs of a particular case. Hulan thought of this less as working undercover than simply blending into a landscape so she could hear people's real voices.

Hulan stripped off her dress, then pulled on a simple short-sleeve white blouse worn soft by years of wear and washings, and pants that came to just above her ankles. Suchee then handed her a pair of homemade shoes. Slipping these on, Hulan thought about the kind of life that a person wearing them would have out here in the countryside. She felt her body losing its attitude of self-possession and assuredness, to be replaced by a woman who had survived only at the caprice of nature. Within minutes, and aided by these few garments and a change in demeanor, Liu Hulan devolved from Red Princess to peasant.

"Can you tell me the way to the Bing farm?"

"They won't know anything," Suchee said.

"I'm going to see Tsai Bing," Hulan clarified, then added, "but if you want me to do this, then you'll have to let me do it my way. Please don't question me."

After a brief discussion, Suchee reluctantly agreed.

"One more thing," Hulan said as they left the house and headed out across the fields. "Please don't tell anyone who I am."

"What if someone remembers you?"

Hulan shook her head. "I was here long ago. You were one of the few local people who came to the Red Soil Farm to teach us. The others who were older are probably dead."

Suchee acknowledged that this was so.

"And the people who were our age, well, most of them went back to the city. Am I right? Besides, twenty-five years is a long time. Few of us look as we once did."

"Yes, but there may be people who will remember you for your name-Liu Hulan, martyr for the Revolution."

"Maybe, maybe not. It was a popular name once, so I am only one of many my age. What's important is that even if people do recognize my face for some reason…" She thought about the photographs from the newspapers, then strengthened herself and her voice. "No one can know I work for the ministry. No one. Do you understand?"

The two women stopped walking. Suchee contemplated Hulan. Would she have thought to write Hulan if she hadn't seen that photograph of her dancing in that tight dress in the nightclub pasted to the news wall in the village? At that time Suchee had heard no gossip and didn't mention that the decadent woman in the picture had once lived in the area. As Hulan said, that was a long time ago, and she had been only one soft city face among thousands of other soft city faces. Today, if someone saw Hulan in Miaoshan's clothes they would not think Beijing woman, let alone Ministry of Public Security inspector. She would be just another peasant. To Hulan's question, Suchee nodded solemnly. Hulan put a hand on her friend's arm. "And you're sure this is what you want? Because if you have any doubts, now is the time to stop me." "I'm sure."

"Okay, then, how much farther is it?" Suchee raised an arm and pointed out across a bean field. "Go one more li. You will see the house."

Hulan took a couple of steps, then looked back at her friend. "I may be gone for some time. Go back to work and don't worry about me." Then she turned and walked along the pathway.

It was still early, maybe only eight, but the sun beat down unrelieved by any breeze. Hot air undulated up off the earth, heavy with humidity.

Soon enough Hulan's body would become acclimated, but for now she endured the heat as best she could. She felt sweat running down the backs of her legs, but she kept her pace steady. To go more slowly would prolong her time under the direct sun; to hurry would only hasten dehydration.

Eventually the rows of beans changed back again into corn. The air was moderately cooler here with banks of corn coming up above Hulan's head on both sides of her, but in many ways she would have preferred the low-lying bean fields to the slashing leaves of the corn stalks that sometimes breached their orderly rows. Suddenly Hulan heard voices. She held still for a moment and decided that they were ahead of her. It was late enough now that the Tsais would already be out in the fields, but these were not the sounds of mother, father, and son working side by side. These were low murmurs punctuated by a young woman's giggle. With her homemade shoes, Hulan's footsteps were virtually silent as she passed along the earth, so she brushed her hands against the corn, causing the leaves to rustle so that whoever was out here would hear her approach. Abruptly the corn opened up to reveal a small area of about six by six feet where the corners of four different plots met. Where the pathways created a cross sat a young couple, face to face, with their legs draped over each side of the berm.

"M hao." The young man's greeting came out more as a question: Who are you and what are you doing here?

"Zenmeyyang," Hulan replied. This translated to something casual along the lines of "What's happening?" Without waiting for a response, she continued, "I am looking for the farm of the Tsai family. Am I close?"

The girl giggled. The boy said, "I am Tsai Bing. This is our family's land. Can I help you? Are you looking for my parents? They are in the field on the other side of the house."

Instead of answering his questions, Hulan asked, "May I sit down?"

The two young people looked at each other, then back at Hulan. Finally the boy motioned for her to sit.

"I am Liu Hulan, a friend of Ling Suchee."

"This is Tang Siang," the boy said, motioning to the young woman seated across from him. "She is the one-child daughter of our neighbor. The Tang lands are over there." He raised a dirty finger and pointed to his left. "They go for many li. For so many li that Tang Dan and his daughter are able to live in Da Shui Village."

In another culture Hulan might have taken this thorough introduction for nervous jabbering, but here in China it was not only common but expected that an introduction would include identification of place, status, and, most important, family position.

Hulan did not respond with similar information on herself. Instead she said, "I have come to visit Suchee. She is sad to lose her daughter." As she spoke, Hulan observed Tsai Bing. The boy's face had not yet developed into manhood, and he had an open look to his features. His eyes were bright. His smile was friendly. He was countryside thin, meaning that he was just bones and skin. His shorts-several sizes too large for him-were held up by a tightly cinched belt. His black hair was long and stuck out in unruly chunks. Whether this was from home cutting or from his time alone with the girl at his side Hulan couldn't say. "It must be hard for you too."